Catching up

It's been awhile since I've blogged and since I'm here I might as well catch up on where I've been lately.

Since this is now August I am officially 49 years old since July 19th. Whew.  Just one year to enjoy my 40's and then I'm into my 50's. Trippy.

I'm still living at Jesus People though I have been transitioning for a couple months now. Shoot, small break while I call my mom.

No answer from my mom, went straight to vm so she's probably taking a nap or sleeping since she works a graveyard shift.

I just got a job at a call center taking calls for golf courses all over the county.  I start training tomorrow.  Pretty stoked since I've been looking for a job for over two months now.  Pretty soon I can hopefully get my own place or even find someone who needs a roommate in this area.  That might be cool too.

Also I've been scoring some music lately.  So far I have a flute solo, flute and oboe duet, flute and clarinet duet, and a small five piece chamber orchestra piece which consists of piano, violin, flute, clarinet and cello.

Right now I'm attempting to write a Christmas piece and score the song I wrote for my sister Melissa when I was a teenager.

I have been trying to write a book since I believe March of this year. I think I have something like 22 pagers or the like. It's been really slow going, especially when it comes to subjects that are very sensitive.

Still trying to get a divorce, but not any closer than before which is both frustrating and not so much.

The only reason I want this divorce is so that I can permanently close that "chapter" of my life and hopefully never remember it again. People may say that this "experience" will help me grow but I say my life is chock full of things that help me grow so I really don't need to keep remembering this particularly extremely painful time in my life to grow.  At least I think I've done all the growing I was supposed to from this time in my life.

I feel like doing some scoring now so I'm going to wrap this up.

Thanks for taking the time to read this.

New Tired Life

A spur-of-the-moment-poem
Tired, worn out, scared
A new chapter for life, was the previous one death?
Adventure, zest, challenges galore
No. Stay in the rut, it's easier, it's the same.
Live for God, live for yourself, live for others
Does anyone honestly care beyond a few scattered mutters?
Take a step, dance a jig, sing a new song
fall down without knowing if you will be able to stand once again.
He's got friends, he's got support they all think
without knowing he's alone, only words on a screen to comfort and care.
So?
The ball is rolling, I will not look back.
Time to move on, for better or worse, those words are haunting
No longer young, not old enough to die, just here
Good times may soon be here, new friends, new love, new lease on life.